why must it

Was waken up by a vibration on my tab the other morning, and it was a continued msg cause someone fell asleep.

And trust me , the feeling sucks .

Cause I got questioned early in the morning . It was all about questioning.

Don't we have nothing else to talk? And why must it be that way , that the only time I would hear from you would be when you have something to COMPLAIN .

You kept on asking me the question that I think it's the only question I would not answer you , all these while, tell me a time when I did not play to your rhythm . All the while , you know, not only you , even She know that your words is the only words I've never once say no.

You kept saying how I know , if I didn't try , you went till the extent of saying as though I am putting it in a way that I am the only one that deserve a girl like you.

That word of yours, really made me lost my temper .


You know I've never complained nor say anything when you were with your ex crush , little did you know, I was wishing you too when you said , you had a crush on him . . .


And dare you say to me now, that if I were to join the game, would there be any difference? Ask yourself , don't answer just for the sake of answering.

You are right to say , and I admit that I knew if I were to be in this game of cards, I know that there is no chance for me winning.

But isn't it the same today? Did I made a wrong choice? By staying out of the game?

You said I wanted the best of both world, I would say , I never wanted the BEST of both world, cause I knew what I wanted , my actions might not prove my saying right, but honestly , I knew what I wanted at this moment, but it doesn't matter anymore . Cause judgement was made .

What's the use of arguing .

I've told you a thousand times, I've always believe, it if was meant to be, it will be .

Time would not be a factor , if in the period of time, one could fall for another , than it just prove that things are not meant to be..


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this was what you said , it might be true, but think about it , did you took a time out of your busy schedule when you have that little spare time , just to make out for loss time?

Honestly, asked yourself . If you really think you did , I am really sorry for everything.

Call me stubborn ( I admit ) , call me realistic ( I admit ) , call me anything , but trust me when I say I live in a complicated world.

As busy as I am , or as pissed off as I am , if my priority is set, there would always be time for it.

I believe in wrong timing, but I also believe in time management..

You might be cursing now for me saying things like that , but you are not busy till the extent that you don't even contact any of your friends, not busy till the extent that you don't have talks on the phone . Isn't it?

Whether you admit it or not, it's just that one isn't in your priority list . nuff said.

Or maybe like you said, someone would get hurt if you took any moves

But why? Why is it that way?

All this while, ppl kept telling me this and that, and when I made things cleared. All i have is just an answer like that?

I am the type of person, that will never answer questions asked if I know that whatever answer I gave, would not make any diff , that is why I always say, let me know what would the difference be if i were to say Yes , or if I were to say No?

Perhaps you would feel better if I said yes?

Sometimes what we wish is just so contradicting isn't it?

Thank you , when you said the only thing stopping you now was me , Sorry too

But you know, it is impossible if you think that I can accept the fact not mentioning the fact that how much you've changed .

You even said that even your ex crush told you that these days , you would not find him, unless he took the step to msg you.

Why all of the sudden you felt there is no need to find him when you have no classes.

I can't brain it. Seriously

I wonder how would he think about it , especially knowing he did told you about one intention of going after you when one offered you a ride , but you told him in a convincing way, he is thinking too much..

If given a chance, I would really like to know what's running through his mind..

The fact that he was on the edge of getting something, but now ......................................

Second? * i'm Glad if it is*