THANK YOU

first world :)
at a beach at thailand :) ur first thailand trip :)
like this photo so much, taken at penang, we head down to thailand, and stop by at penang after spending a nite at thailand..remember? hmm was it one nite or 2 nite?? :) a happy peace posing for the camera :P
hehe know at where? PP island hotel @ penang, the nice budget hotel , remember our car park at the main door? like very yeng only hehe..


at FRANCE , hehe, siao meh, at bukit tinggi pahang :)
after bukit tinggi, we went genting :)
kena bully by u as usual ( hehe i am lying )
melaka, eye of malaysia..
first melaka trip with jere
hehe, actually white i bought for valentine or dunno wat de, i noe we walking randomly at a warehouse sale, saw nice than buy the pink, but ended up i using it :) hehe

singapore marina sand bay, last pic before boarding bus :) hehehe, saw the plastic on my hand? ngke ngek ngek

our tommy baju :) gong xi fa cai :) 2 for me one for u..



taken at singapore.. reli regret, all photo so blur :( u la, camera no battery pula :P
taken at pyramid :) with those machine thingy :) manyak mahal :P but worth it..

Few random pic.. if wanna post a pic for every places we have been, i guess it will be a so dam long post then :)
genting, on kh gf birthday
at msian border, before entering thai :)

hehe, not mine, is urs, pinjam syiok sendiri sikit.. remember how we ended up buying tat belt?
say also no one will believe :P sampai cnt even afford to makan dinner at kl need back klang makan with family.. :) but tat belt , reli no regret buying :P worth every single dollar...

take @ ur 21st birthday
the only birthday present i ever gave u, tat is on ur 21st birthday

omg, this is so long time ago :)

your most expensive baju.. take care of that shirt nicely <>

and all i can answer is, make sure we take lots of pic and on a brighter side, at least the last is somewhere outside Msia :)

you have always stay true through good times and bad times.. never once did you fuss about even when i cannot afford to bring u out like how i did when we first started...

how often did we travel for food, and the most memorable food hunting was when jere told me that nilai is just half an hour drive from klang, so we took a slow drive down and mana tau his half an hour is because he speed..

kns ... and on the way down, tat time we haven started going for holidays yet, u were imagining how nice it would be if we werent heading to nilai but to port dickson :P
and hehe the steamboat buffer at seremban2 was reli good :)

we been to places before , even though it was mostly near places, such as penang , melaka, port dickson , but hope tat would leave a good memories in you . in me too of course :)

as i have always make it a point for us to get ourselves a vacation every sem break. :) remember how i used to say, o we haven been to there before haven been to there before and etc.. johor, kedah we haven been to this places together before, so i assume the singapore trip will do the trick :P

i guess the fraser hill trip was the only time i ever brought u to a high class place to dine.. hehe u also know cause no choice , only got one stall :)
who ask u together wit a kiam siap guy :P

and i think the craziest would be our cameron trip recently, where its a 3 hour before plan, when i just call u and we check for a cheap hotel on9 and i get back home and just tell my mom i might be going down to cameron later in the evening around 7 pm..

hehe, and i guess mom is used to it d, always last minute tell than pack lugage and chao... think that would be the latest , 7 something only leave klang.. and u even said, not together d still can take photo together ma , so we took one on top , the place where alot of cars jam :) pic still at my phone..

ok ok , if i were to continue blogging i duno when only will stop writing... and for the last time i wanna say THANK YOU FOR ALL THE THINGS U've DOne for me...
i know that u have sacrifices a lot ....... and life has to go on :)

Miss KAM PECK SHEE :) u r definitely a good gf, a good fren ( which i am sure most of ur fren will agree ) , someone that will always think for others first,

and like wat i always tell u, remember, that there are times we have no choice but to take care of ourselves , dun wanna see u getting so stress up like how u use to get while helping others..









Save the best for last :)

Sunday

Took a drive down to KL around 6 something.

Wanted to drop by IOI Mall Puchong to get myself a jeans, since i haven been there before, mana tau, chit chatting until i missed the 'penang bridge' flyover.. thought after that go for the Ipoh Ngar Choy chicken rice ma..

So ended up at Mid Valley and :) they have a branch outside there too so still ended up eating the Ipoh Ngar Choy Chicken rice and kinda lazy to walk to Mid Valley, so just walk around at Gardens which is so not ngam me cause everything inside is so dam expensive..

So ended up down to petaling street for jln jln, just to kill some time and than head down to Setapak for the hokkien mee again..

And we were just chit chatting and suddenly peace said, guys that go to club mostly also cnt use de.. which i feel is a little too generalize?

Girls tat go to club doesnt reli mean those type of girls beh pakai, especially if those girls that go is going with one group of female frens, i guess thats very ok? :)

And i was just telling her, a girl driving to the club just looks so not ok...
I mean, firstly, after club will be 3 d, takkan a girl drive back alone?

secondly, nampak sikit weird eh, shudnt it be a guy fetching? especially if there's a guy in the group that u will be going with.

girls dont need to pay for club, i dun reli agree la, unless its they enter before 12, but for girls driving to the club, er... worst if she is driving alone... ask me drive down alone also i dun feel like going d :)

And than we were talking about jual-mahal.. girls reli get their 'satisfaction' when they get to jual mahal dont they? which she agree so much..

and she claim that we can diff between trying to avoid or jual mahal-ing.. cause i was saying, wat if actually the person is trying to avoid..

And i was commenting that girls would change a lot for the better ( in terms of appearance ) once there reach the age of 21 , and till wat age , i tak tau la :)

Someone claimed that she enjoy the feeling when guys show some sign that he is interested in dancing with u ( something like tat ) but of course not allowing him to do so.. a sense of satisfaction perhaps? knowing that they are people into u :)

i personally feel people that dare to say such thing knows that he or she definitely has the looks . They definitely know for themselves that they have the right to 'jual mahal' i would say.. i wouldn't use the word over-confident,but i would say, they definitely know that they are hot, or u can say they have the attitude. there are people out there that doesnt look pretty or hot, but u know just by the looks they reli have that 'killing' power :P

and i guess its their attitude, or wat they say in mandarin , got 'seng kak'..something like tat..
*respect*

anyway guess i better stop crapping..

and peace was quoted asking, ' so i guess the Guilin trip would be our last holiday together'?
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Its 4.20 am , and i just came back from mamak with jl, wh, and jere.

before that was at fren place, playing cards, lose 30 bucks :(

been coming back after 5 last 2 days :(

anyway this week petrol really very kao lat.. tuesday start go pandan indah for dinner, till today i put 90 bucks d.. now finish d, empty till empty tat type..

haven plus toll????? only tat pandan indah toll cost 13.20 for two ways.. mati liao

last nite went mist, din drive, tumpang fren's car. ask me drive alone to Mist, cnt le... but yesterday got exception :) but somehow i still try ppl to go .. but lucky my fren car alone :)

anyway reach Mist and got stuck at the car park area, and even need to queue up.. and it was so freaking crowded, and i would say, not fun.. cause cant even walk nicely..

once i enter, even though it was crowded, but the stage dancefloor only got 2 lady.. i would use the term lady rather than girl :)

and as usual, while they were drinking, i do what i do most, that is to observe ppl and reli , club is reli such an amazing places.. where we can see all sorts of pattern :)

I mean u wouldnt have imagine that those people would have dance till so high in the club and etc...

Girls especially... Girls are definitely something i reli have a sense of respect for them.. omg, dont judge a book by its cover..

So was just standing there listening to the musics, and just get myself to thinking mode. and when i see ppl around me, enjoying their session, dancing, drinking, and the same question run through my mind again, they reli so 'free' free meaning dont they have things to worry bout?

i still cant let down those thinking everytime i go ... especially last nite, as the group was kinda small and not so happening :)

only till 2 something when a fren of mine came down, and just chit chat for while and :) like i say, don judge a book by its cover :)

and so i guess it was only that 10 mins where i can reli let myself 'free'.

But dun misunderstand ar, haha, i am still the me, stand there lo :)

dancing is just so not for me

ppl go club for many reasons, some girls go so that they can just dance out, some guys go kap lui, go drink, go smoke and etc...

i go? enjoy the group of frens together, and also most important listen to music :)

after club continue at jln alor for supper and balik rumah...

oops, something so wrong with my shirt button :P

college off starting on monday, which is a not so gud news :(

p.s Girls always have the jual mahal advantage isnt it? the art of jual-mahal is something that guys would never get to beat girls.

p.ss. Tears is when a femine hydropower beats a man masculine power.. which i so dam agree, i just cant stand when i see tears in a girls eyes.. like, omg, its my fault again.. just that, it reli makes our heart feel so notrite :(

will blog about JUAL MAHAL next time..


if only.........................................

Blogging at Botanic Cafe :)

Using fren's laptob, alone :(

Anyway long story.

More and more drama unfolding. I personally feel all this happened to a person because of the past actions.. We might still be on top of the world today, but do you guys believe in Karma?

Or the old saying, What goes around comes around.

Kena con today, ended up at Boston and now Botanic Cafe

So many things to blog, but not reli in a mood to blog today.

Anyway I just hate the feeling of waiting. I just dont have the patience to wait, be it on a Fb chat, or worst an sms..
Kinda get a little pek check at times when i dont get a reply from my sms, be it from a friend, or a outsider who just sms for me to quote a price.

I mean, for outsiders, wouldnt an ok or thank you msg be something hard to reply?
@#$!%^%^!^!

For friends, ........................................................................... just not in a mood, at times, i reli wonder what people are thinking.

and just a random thought about the sms thingy, because i experience it often these days :(

This month would definitely be a month i wouldnt want to go through again.

I learned my lesson, and definitely paid a heavy price for it...

All this while, i have been trying to 'market' or potray myself as not one of the most succesful, but all this while, I did not doubt my own ability. In terms of earning a small pocket money all by myself.
But today, I guess i got to admit, I am no longer the me i thought i was :(

Or maybe is it because lately as we mix with ppl, we tend to compare ourselves too much?

All i know is that, at this very moment, i am nobody..

I felt helpless.. i honestly felt so..

And everything seems so not right , everything doesnt seems favoring in my way.

How long more would this run continue? i can only wonder... I've been trying to STAND, trying by all means to keep myself from FALLING DOWN FLAT!!! i've already FALL , so pls dont make me fall down FLAT!!!

But for how long more can i last? I have my own limit, sooner or later, my resources aka $$$$$$ would be drying up..

And i myself dunno how long more can i stand all this.. I have already lost my image , Kelvin Koh Keng Kiat , i guess this name have also been blacklisted..

All this while, i tried my best to dress up appropriately when i am out, even if it meant going to college.
A jeans with a shoe is defnitely a must.

Somehow, i just felt that, dressing up wouldnt cost us a lot, but would make a lot of difference in terms of image we left for people....

But all it takes is one day, and theres goes all your effort.

Speaking from the bottom of my heart, i honestly and sincerely thank Peace , she really help me out alot.. from the day we were together, and even till this day, I dunno where would I be today if it wouldnt because of her...

Our status might not be the same today, but she still help me out alot.. ALOT ALOT ALOT

And sometimes i really felt sorry for all that I've done.... how could such a girl deserve a guy like me, she definitely deserve someone much much much much much better..

Not a FAILURE like me.... a pic from Hatyai Thailand, been there twice with her. thxs for all the good days

Many ask me, if i were given a chance to choose again, would I still choose the road tat I've taken? leaving someone who most would feel something stupid thing to do... my answer? i would still choose this road..

I am just a Bus3rd.. call me that call me anything. and i am not into this question anymore

theres still much more things to be done

I told myself , after my Guilin trip would be the moment of truth, if i still cant perform well , i guess that basically what i will be for the rest of my life...

i cant .. i have waste too much time.... 20 this year and no achievement....

even my mom offered me 500 to buy CNY clothings, she warn me not to wear old clothes for CNY. ( which i dun mind wearing actually )

But i did bought a few d, as much as i wanted to take that 500 as much as i desperately needed it.. i still say nvm ,i ownself go buy..

few reasons..

firstly, dah lah i spend their hard earned money on my college fees, i din borrow ptptn, cause of my tidak apa attitude too,
i cannot pass my ownself to somemore take and spend on CNY clothings.

second, if i am buying shirts for cny and jeans i wouldnt mind. but the fact that other than buying such clothings, i spend on snooker, yum cha and also nowadays worst MIST sometimes

so is defnitely a no no.....
for me, its simple, if i go club, i know i am using my own money , ( other than car petrol ) at least i feel better...
no doubt we have lots of rich dad people oing there, but at least i did my part..

and buying clothes, my mom didnt even buy expensive clothing, but here i am, and i am sure most of us teenagers who spend on branded stuff....

if i dont buy those branded stuff i wouldnt mind taking it..

haiz.. fan ar............... argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

guess i gotta start finding a hole for me to hide my face...

i honestly need a mask..

Not being arrogant here, but most of my fren would ask me for advice or maybe i would say my words would be slightly more influencial , frens will ask me, shud i bla bla bla.. mostly related to their work, or perhaps they found some mlm company and etc....

But today, even if a person would want to ask my advice, who am i to give.... i am no longer qualified to advice a person.... when me myself is in deep shit....

those days were gone where, i feel, i am proud of myself, not earning big bucks, but at least able to earn and spend for my activities..

but now?

kla guess i better stop here



chaoz.......

$$$$$$

Ren Mai = Chien Mai $$$$$$$

Love at first sight.

The shirt I meant :P

Procrastinating. Like I always do, will blog about it later tonight.

Wanna go Setapak for hokkien mee again. haiz.

chaoz.

p.s if only...............................................

Took a drive down to Setapak for the hokkien mee behind Tawakal Hospital, business was so good today, seats fully taken :)

even when i left at 12 was still so full :)

but today wasn't reli good as how it was suppose to be .sigh

and chatted about lots of stuff

how i use to curi curi buy souvenir for Peace in my first hatyai trip..

and like always, i just cant stop buying things when i am for a holiday, like the other day at cameron, i dunno wat did i buy that cost me almost 100... siao liao... haiz.. i only remember me taking 2 packet of strawberry .. balance all tak tau go where.. shud be that BHB girl from kg raja uda take all la.. :P

and also singapore , but singapore, slightly different story hehe, didnt reli buy much, CNT AFFORD to buy alot, cause everything must multiply by 2.4 due to the currency exchange.

only bought few stuff for ourselve aka peace bought 3 shirts one photo album and i bought one Universal studio shirt for that INFAMOUS PERVERT :P

anyway back to our conversation at setapak

and we were talking about what i did last week at MIST which i didnt know would be such a BIG ISSUE?

wth? wat wrong would it be for me to drive down to Alive @sunway to fetch a fren that was going to be drunk up to MIST? takkan leave her alone there? haiz
i mean, i would do the same too, if it was another person ( fren of mine of course )

and we were also discussing about ME . as i find it hard to give myself 3 good things about myself . and conclusion that i came up with? Total lost.... destine to be single liao la this time haha..

unless a blind woman bump into me :)

also talk about how realistic people are....

and alot more

and yea, she was kinda surprise that i wasnt mad that i found out that she did take a look at my phone msg..

nope, i wasnt. honestly, if it was last time, u can bet that i already blew my top... but now, haha, i always tell myself, wat is there to be angry off, and who am i to be angry :)

so no worries :)

afterall my phone most msg also from random ppl, that msg me to get some price quote only..

and she also say she only saw two names, leng lui elaine tan , and pukul nasi chin ( which she is more interested in knowing the content ) AND only one or TWO msg pls. not those borakborak type

hehe weird leh both name, but i reli save it like tat in my phone book. first name is because always call her leng lui ma leng lui elaine tan lo, second because i translate her english name to bahasa melayu :)

so basically ntg much or ntg fishy inside my msg :)

and than i was wondering, wearing a more branded , NOT smarter cause u can look smart without branded clothing , would give u a little sense of confident?

cause ppl like me, no look, no money, so hehe ......

anyway went botanic cafe last nite, and yea, they play nicee songs, the band wehhee, but heard only thurs got :(

anywhere where we can enjoy live band but of course, dun la so expensive place.. when i say nice songs i mean those classic songs, not those chinese songs, PLS.!!!

i know genting de dam nice, haiz but always stand outside listen only cause its a place where ppl drink beer ( bo ngam ) and also looks a little expensive ( lagi bo ngam )

first pic taken at penang famous abc ( dunno wat so nice )

second pic taken at singapore marina sand bay :)

SPOT THE FAKE :)

a ) both also fake
b) black is real , blue is fake
c) blue is real, black is fake
d) both also real ( DREAM ON )


any plan for tomolo saturday nite????

A busy day at shop which is a good thing.

Anyway, a random thought of, how weird it would be for me to be driving a toyota unser isnt it? :)
cause drove one unser just now, and i cannot imagine myself driving that :)

would rather drive the my mom's old junk :P

Back to college tomorrow after a day break for Thaipusam

Anyway, wanted to drop down damansara for yum cha, but jl say lazy out, so ended up not going anywhere, but will be out later for some work to do..

How nice it would be if we can read a person mind.

Haiz. sienzzzzzzzzz

so many things yet to be done....

so many things to think off

so many left over problems yet to be solve

and so many confusing signal

another random pic taken at Universal studio singapore outdoor park.. while sitting on a mini cable car.. nice view isnt it? didnt know water could be so clean there, with the main port just a stone throw away.

love makes the world go round?


A man reserves his true and deepest love not for the species of woman in whose company he finds himself electrified and enkindled, but for that one in whose company he may feel tenderly drowsy.

My heart goes shala lala, shalala in the morning
Shalala lala, shalala in the sunshine
Shalala lala, shalala in the evening
Shalala lala, shalala just for you




somehow this shalala lyrics just run through my mind :)

i know that this should reflect my happiness , which is so not true.

just somehow it ran through my mind..

a reli melodious song :)

enjoy....

shalallallla ooo shalalala

p/s somehow i gotta a feeling that weeks pass faster these days, tomolo thursday holiday, and the next day would be friday again :(

chaoz

Went Sunway for chicken chop for dinner again, wanted to go Klang Jaya fried chicken for dinner, but thought of driving from klang utama to there would be quite a distance, might as well go down sunway than..

Nice chicken chop as usual, and order another wan tan mee since peace wanted to eat , mana tau, i saw got white chicken so ask him add few pieces, thought would add around 1.50 like tat, mana tau when the plate of wan tan mee came, cost 8 bucks... wth, same price like my chicken chop :(
a random pic taken at Peace house on her 21st birthday :)


hmm, wat else ar? ntg much to blog though.



one of Air Supply best song :)

making luv out of ntg at all :)

loving it

Just got back from Asia Cafe with Kh , his gf and Jl.

And on the way back after fetching JL, kena roadblock :(

And as usual the IRRESPONSIBLE Kelvin didnt have any ic, license and even my report paper with me.

And kh accidentally told tat he got license..and so the police ask me why din let him drive and etc...

And ended up i search for my student id, and show him and after some conversation , he ask me to let Kh drive :) without any sense of duit kopi hehe, cause they werent reli into cari-ing makan.

So yeah, guess student id reli does have its own use at times .

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:( mixed feelings .. i reli dunno wat can i do, can someone help me?

theres this saying, lucky is the man who is the first love of a woman, but luckier is the woman who is the last love for the man.

i truely agree.

i really wonder how some people can let a relationship goes off just like that....

but i guess thats life? life goes on rite?

i really felt like a @$%@!^&%#%&@!!^!@&@!#

at times, even me myself doubt what am i thinking, at times we feel that we have contradicting feelings.

or maybe i can say, we tend to often wanna have the best of both world?

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college started and just when i thought i could be looking forward for classes , something else ruin it. :(

in life, it always very weird isnt it? there will be ppl that would be happy to be with the person but the person chooses to be with another person, but the other person chooses to be with another person...
confusing? ignore me :)

wat i meant, is we would often tend to have a sense of envy that he or she might be able to be with a particular person that maybe u urself have thought of.

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lifes a bitch? is such a famous saying, and i dunno where did that sentence first appeared.

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at times, its hard to understand human isnt it?

malu bertanya sesat jln, i reli agree..

in everything, i mean, continue being shy to ask, and u will definitely lose out alot in life :(

but again, having a courage would be another question :(

enough of rubbish,

anyway just purchase one caller ringtone hehe :) unbreak my heart but spanish version by il divo

wanted to buy this anak, nicee song,



chaoz

Firday night .

Hungrying..

Anyway guess i screwed up in today's presentation @#%^!&#&@@!*(!&*^!#

went for mamak with jl, kh, wh , jere last nite at shanmuga.. siao punya mamak, thursday nite also so full..

they went for shopping today, but i din join them, first no money, second, dun feel like going, go also cnt afford to spend d.

haiz, MIST tonite? will see how it goes.. now hungrying :(

Kelvin Koh Keng Kiat

All these while, I always make sure that I keep an image for myself , image in terms of dressing, bringing myself, and of course by my actions too, but ..........................................

sorry, was chatting on the phone from 12,30 to 3.30

going to continue blogging the next time.

p.s BUrdEn myself?

p.s.s thxs for the chat

chaoz




niceee song

Finally can use my house computer to online after so long.

The com table so long din touch, so freaking dusty

And even the keyboard also so dusty.. yucks..
roughly clean it a little just now, will clean and clear the whole place so it would look a little more pleasant.

As i face the com when i am free , especially using phone.. the internet is such an important tool for me to check on my online stuff :)

internet = income

Anyway went Sunway for dinner, went for the chicken chop and second round at Setapak for the famous hokkien mee behind hospital tawakal.. and also tried their fishcake.. dunno wat so famous about that.

K will continue blogging next time

chaoz

First day of classes :) quite alot of ppl

Now waiting for second class.. literature, shud be alot also .. but guess this sub would be a very very boring sub...

:( prospect prospect where are u?

as expected... sudah beh tahan wore one of my 2 CNY shirt d.. haha bought 2 one red one blue , lucky i smart ask peace keep the red shirt, not sure before new year also take and wear d haiz....

no disiplin betul

sienz...

A new year a new beginining?

Hope this year would be a better sales year :(

Cny is reli just around the corner hehe :)

Dunno why i so got CNY mood , keep on listening to CNY song..

College start = no more hanging out till 3 or 4 am d :(

chaoz

Vomitted from mid night, high fever, dunno why suddenly so sick.. kns..

today feeling a little better , but still feel like theres something near my chest, an uneasy feeling i would say

today second day of college, but college still so empty :(

lazy to blog d, anyway will blog about singapore trip soem other day

chaoz