don't ever question my . . . . .. . . . .

two sleepless night.. The feeling of my heart being weak ( really weak , not just that emo weak ) .

Was caught surprise in a what I think came too randomly , not that I've have not expected one to think that way. But the fact that when one pop's up the issue all of the sudden, you just don't know what to react.

But I would say , I really hope such awkward situation wouldn't happen again . I doubt it would knowing the fact that I've would soon have to get things clear , knowing that things isn't going in a good direction.

每人手中都有一张底牌

a status I've posted on fb yesterday . And I couldn't agree more on it .

It's up to you guys to think about it, but that's what I really think....

Wasn't really in a mood but couldn't get one to talk too, so decided to just write it out here..

Peace once asked me recently, today , how you are treating me isn't different from how you are treating her?

And I really wonder why is there a need to pop such question?

What kind of an answer would one like to hear?

As the saying goes, truth isn't always a nice thing to listen

Let me get my stand right, everyone knows who I've cared about ... It isn't about to compare who I've cared more . And if one would have questioned if I've had fallen for another even during my courtship days. I would say , you are no one to judge.

 Unless the other half feel the same too..

If that's the case , what is there for me to say? Perhaps I'm just not your Mr Right? * i doubt you would feel that too *

I might not be the best, nor good , but I know what's the limit, and there are things, I've always set my STAND FIRM, and that includes falling for someone while in a relationship.. nuff said

Feelings come and go, this we gotta admit

But I always believe , if its meant to be, it will always be... might sound stupid but its just my thinking

And this is the reason why I don't take crush seriously... Don't tell me you haven had a crush? 

It's been a month full of " controversial" . I have people talking behind , I have people making assumptions and what's not.

There isn't a 100% when it comes to relationship

Our criteria in choosing our partners would change when you think you found your right one

Me too used to say that I would never fall for a chinese ed :) 

does this sentence sounds so wrong to you?

What if the one you love isn't the one you cared most ? Or vice versa?
What say you?

Sounds conflicting isn't it?

Those reading my blog would only be my circle of friends that I mix with often..

And so what if I woke up early in the morning to fetch a friend of mine just for classes?

So what if I took half day off just to pick one back after college?

So what if I offered to go all the way down just to pick someone up cause it's just so late?

Is there a problem in me doing that?

I've said this a thousand times, the will to do or not , only depends on how we set our priority . If I've set my priority the same to anyone of you, than you too would have the same treatment

But just accept the fact that we do have a part of us just for that someone .. 

DON'T BULLSHIT that why so sudden treating someone so good ...

How I've treated this friend of mine all these while, I guess there is not a need for me to explain? And I've said the same thing too , if you are in a relationship with someone today, than of course you don't expect me to treat u the same as how I'm now. * it's just my principle that there are times where we need to draw a line knowing that one have the other partner .

Think about it, we often give two bloody different answers to two different sexes for 2 bloody same question without second thought? so why make a big fuss?

and we are talking about a non ordinary friend of mine. A person which i used to talk about almost everything, i would say EVERYTHING , pardon me for using the word used too . Cause ................... don't really wanna talk about it

And the million dollar question for most of you reading , so have you fallen for this friend of yours?

* is that important for you guys? as if it would make a difference ?

p.s not having a good feeling on where this is heading too

if I played my cards , it's the day I think I would lose everything