call that nvr came

Its almost half pass four in the morning..

And i gotta get up later at 8.30 , cause later will be a super busy morning at shop.

Why am i still awake?

Cause i was waiting for a call that never came.

Stupid isn't it? After all it wasn't the first time . But I really thought today would be an exception , the fact that you would be only getting back home in the wee hours. With someone drinking to fetch u back.

BUT I GOTTA MAKE MYSELF clear that , that would be last .

Cause I think if one just cant be bothered, why should I be bothered?

I didn't know, that it was such a hard thing for one to do , just to a simple request for a friend, I really wonder if telco company are charging super expensive for a call that would take 30 seconds.

Or maybe one just can't be bothered..

Sometimes I pretend that I don't care. But really, I care more than anyone else ever will

a friend of mine posted this on her fb... super like the status

The only diff is that I don't pretend that I don't care . But times and times again, it is this feeling of caring tat reli put me sleepless night.

I've tried telling myself , don't be bothered , she is old enough to think  and who are you to care, but I dunno why, at the end of the day, I still can't do it.

But I seriously think I really reach my limit, till the extend that I told you that I am really disappointed in you .

I even said I think we need to have a talk. And I really mean it.

If I don't hear you by Sunday  , than I think we really have nothing else to talk about.

Lost for words. What else do you think can i say?

I am ok with anyone else disappointing me, but I really didn't thought that you too would be the same.

I reli thought that you would be different.

And you prove me wrong .

Perhaps I did not take this 5 years of friendship to know you better. Or perhaps for you, time is just a number.

I really wonder....