Just came back from WAN TAN MEE . the fourth consecutive day . anyway, that's not important, most important is jl and wx belanja, cause they won a lot.. would wanna share something here.
What I'm trying to post today is, I'M SO ENVY THEY make miillions for years, and I'm so poor because i spend millions after 20 years living in the world, what makes worst is I LOSE $$$ by risking in gambling. Darnnn..
bet today, he wouldnt be posting this post :) anyway, lets get back to me.. at current i am losing 450 bucks... before this losing almost 200 heart pain like hell, keep on grumbling... but all these came to an end on the fourth day of CNY..why?
i attended my mom's fren funeral, the day where she will be buried. she met an accident before CNY and was in ICU and since the condition is not looking positive, ended up donating the organs.it was definitely a sober scenario there, while the pastor are reading their prayers i was behind looking at the newspaper article that was posted in one of the mandarin newspaper. too bad i cant read, all i can see is a big pic of her and also in another smaller pic, pic of the funeral crowd of the first day.
after prayers were done, we started walking slowly eventhough our legs and our heart are telling us that we DONT WANNA WALK,, but again, we drag ourself as we make the last round around the coffin having the last glismpe of her. at that very moment some already started shedding tears , while some tried holding back its watery eyes.
but we all know deep down in our heart, be it the frens, relatives, or anyone who was present on that very day will definitely feel the pain. but again, wats the pain compared to the closest family members, like the old proverb says
BERAT HATI MEMANDANG, LAGI BERAT BADAN MEMIKUL ;(
but all holding back came to an end when when we watch her 3 children and husband covering the coffin. at that very moment, tears started rolling down, and some even cried out loudly.. as much as i wanted to hold back as much as i wanted to be strong but the thought and sight of looking at the family members closing the coffin is one scenario that i will never forget in life, and till now, even when blogging, tears is slowly coming down... its definitely one thing that none would want to experience it.. after the coffin was push into the hearse, and walking for a distance , i walk back to my car and left for my agency , cause i cant make it to the burial site as i've got to ruch back to my office for open work ceremony.. and that was when i realise what is 200 ? compared to the coming journey in life , the road ahead of you.. would you want to win back your 200 but not having the chance to spend it? would you? ask ur self again. WOULD YOU?
life is short my friends. enjoy life, but of course, know the limit and theres always the do's and dont's in entertaintment. donts such as driving under alcohol influence, it only takes one mistake to take your life.. life is precious isnt it?
Security is when everything is settled. When nothing can happen to you. Security is the denial of life.
and back to gambling, i realise that in life, everyone loses in the long run. i might have won alot last year, but this year i lose it all.. what i am trying to say is, what goes arounds comes around, its only a matter of time.. easier said than done, but whats been done cannot be undone , looking ahead for a better 2010 and of course jere house for closing account is what i can do :)
*jere pic*guess i better stop here.
p.s laugh as much as you breathe and love as long as you live
p.s laugh as much as you breathe and love as long as you live
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