deep down my heart

Wuhuu.. Its almost 3 am in the morning and here i am blogging..

Ok so its the first day of new year ( yesterday ) few of my frens came to my house to eat.. er more towards gambling? hehe.. hmm, i won 20 bucks at my house, than after an hour plus of gambling, we decided to shift house.. my house so small, so many ppl, very pek chek de le.. so ended up going to bukit tinggi..

4 cars went.. 2 of them are the kinda quick driver, while the other 1 is a very very slow driver.. in my heart i was wondering, why la they two drive so fast, as though they can enter, cause the slow driver is the homeowner.. haha..

me? er, i fetch my sis to chi liung first.
my driving? hehe.. we will talk about it later ok?

ah yes, back to playing, in my fren house, first play blackjax, i become banker, er, maximum was 5 bucks per game and was so lucky tat time, after playing few rounds only i can see a 50 buck note and few 10 bucks note in front of me.. ( i din even use my own money ) but as they say, all good things must come to an end.. started to be so sueh and ended up left 30 bucks..

decided to stop becoming banker d.. somehow reading books reli helps u in ur life.. why i stop playing? cause i read the Winning With Stocks book, in one part of the book, it wrote when share prices changes daily, there are times when the price shoots so high, but than again, when it already starts to lose its momemtum than prices will start to fall.. it will never be all the way up.
I guess its the same with gambling? thats why i decided to stop. : )

after that they play 'in between' .. hows the game? all of us put 1 buck and open 2 card each, lets say ur card is 3 and 10 than if inside there got 6 bucks, u say 5 bucks, u must get any card between 3 and 10,eg; 4,5,6,7,8,9 if u get 3 or 10 u pay double, other than that u pay 5 bucks.. very chi kek..
i dun wanna play cause trauma d..hehe.. the other day when i go genting with my frens i lose 100 bucks in a round le.. i get 1 and K walao, than got few K out d, mana tau i get K.. dam dam dam dam blooooody sueh..lose 100 bucks.. terus dun wan play.. : (
so just now i only throw 13 bucks to my fren he also throw 13 bucks,, share lo... he play i just watch.. also sueh keep on paying double.. than i took out another 20 bucks share... lose again... cause keep on paying 1 buck but din get to open good card.. ended up losing all the money i won earlier and additional 10 bucks.. enough.. dun wanna play d.... only till the ending time i play for fun ,10 bucks.. lose all, always put 1 buck 1 bucks and get all stupid card..rugi habis..haha..

so total lose 40 bucks in that game..lucky earlier won 20 bucks..

just now was so gan chiong my fren play 40 bucks, ended up paying double.. 80 bucks.. gan chiong.... this game need a lot of modal only can play de..

Gambling.. Frankly speaking, those days during secondary days, we gamble like mad after test.. no limit de.. puo ka na kiao kui ... ok, theres nothing to be shy of rite? i mean, yeah, i gotta admit that those days, when u see us or me gamble u also scared.. play 30 bucks also can for blackjax.. u noe the urge to earn quick bucks.. u can see ur money doubling in just a round or two..

Its all in the mind. Its all in the mind.. recently while i and my fren was msging we talked about girl boy relationship, i told her, that dun let ur short term temptation to win u, at the end of the day, u will regret ( puppy love ).. nah, i am not saying that i can control, but yea, most of the time ( erm, dun wanna talk bout my privacy stuff ) .. er, actually is takda orang mau saya la..hehee

So, when i say i lose 20 bucks today, for me i feel , happy? i mean i am happy because i dun have the urge to gamble like last time.. like 'in between' game, u shud see the way they play, they tend to get so stress up.. we are not talking about a dollar or two.. if ur card is so nice, Greed tend to take over your mind.. lets say inside got 100 bucks.. some might shout 30 bucks some 40 and even 50 bucks.. if u are soooooooooooooooo unlucky ( like me at genting ) shout 50 bucks, if u so sueh, u gotta pay double.. 100 bucks.. 100 bucks per round? ( of course u can also win 50 bucks per round )not forgetting the 1 buck u pay every round. wat we call the entrance fee..

Haha.. i use to have that feeling last time.. when money is involve, u tend to get so stress man.. but those were the days my fren, i now can PROUDLY say that this just beat the purpose of enjoying playing cards... whats the point playing if it makes u so stress? honestly, even nowadays CNY also, for me, er, gamble or not also no big deal.. but if dun gamble must find activity la.. hehe..

even nowadays when i become banker, play 1 or 2 bucks only i also feel so scared.. a good sign rite?
but if u ask me play pool 3 bucks ok la.. hehe.. that is for the fun of it.. no money , wont play serious.. ok at the end of the day just now, two loser, me and my fren, i lose 20 my fren 50.. others nto sure, but i noe one fren win 50 bucks playing in between another 30.. the fren of mine which i share money earlierm won 40 bucks..earlier i share with him each one lose 30... now he won back the 30 bucks and additional 40 bucks,, ( he got alot of modal ma ).. : )

I always believe if money come easily, sooner or later it will also go out easily.. isnt it too good to be true when u see urself winning a hundred or two in just a few round?

ok,will blog about my driving tomolo : )

p/s tomolo will be goin to another fren's house.. wish me luck yea.. hehe

just felt like being honest;
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