from the bottom of my heart

Human relationship and the chemicals that goes when 2 sexes meet is just a subject that i think no one can master it. can we?

opposite attracts. this is what I've been saying since day one. even before getting myself in a relationship.

and what i am going to share here now is just what i personally feel, with no cover ups or any sweet talk just to make a person happy or whatsoever.

guys are attracted to girls and girls are attracted to guys i guess that's just the nature of life rite?

girls always say guys kap lui, but dont they do the same too??

i dunno. but me? its not always about the looks... i mean in terms of attraction... for example, ok u might say that girl is hot. but in reality will u keep on staring or shud i say curi tengok on her when she's not looking??

in my case, there is certainly a type of girls that will make me attracted.. attracted in terms of, u will definitely give an extra eye on her :P

she might not be the prettiest person in that room, but somehow..... tats why i say, its such a complicated topic... 'chemicals'.. and i am here to admit that even in a relationship, we cant ( OK , I will be the word to use if u guys are so innocent :P ) escape from bumping into such situation.. its just .............................. i pun tak tau how to describe.

VISIBER ( dunno if i got the spelling rite )

we dont talk about the positive thing here k, we talk about the negative thing here..

FYI, visible is one body that teaches someone to use our DOB to count what ur future and ur past will be and has been.

and according to this VISIBER thingy.. i will have two wife in the future...

wat say i? wat say U?

i often ask myself. can a person go through courting stage towards couple and just get married without not even experiencing a change of heart? till date, in terms of looking at the people that i mix.. i feel that it is rather a difficult task to achieve..

recently a fren broke up with his since secondary days gf.. 3 years it seems.. is 3 years considered a long period if time? it might be now.. but if we were talking about getting married at the age of 27 and living to 75.. wat is tat 3 years?

feelings comes and go and this we have to admit. but i feel the most important thing is never let such little disturbance affect one current relationship.should we leave a relationship just because at that very moment, someone else has the 'attractive' power in terms of looks.

recently in one of our mamak session with jl and wx... wx out of curious just came asking, hey, your gf must be very pretty de lo, cause u 'invested' so much on her..

ok, first, 'invested' is what he meant when i say about the mid-end purse i bought and also 4 on offer polo shirt and 1 polo without offer shirt.. i dunno about u guys, but for me, i am definitely not the type of guy that we can see during our schooling days where guys would buy this and that just to glue that relationship..

why i say that?? simply because i am kiam siap!!! yup kiam siap... go ask, when was the last time i brought her for a so call 'decent ' meal..aka high class place.. i dunno.. i think the first and last time was on my birthday.. haha... that is after how many months of being together d.. so now u guys get what i meant by kiam siap..

but why purse and polo shirts? not because she is materialistic. its because i am materialistic.. but of course at the end of the day, it is up to one's point of view and what he do for a living.. if we were talking about sales, will a lv belt on ur body gives u just that little confident while walking or even give ur future prospect a little..wow.. ok, this is a .....................bla bla bla sales person..

like yesterday when i attented a talk at ING building, this speaker than say those who have qualified for the incentives but doesnt want the lcd tv can opt for a 1500 reinbursement when she buy any original lv bag.. for girls only..because lv bag is all girls dream...

and later the next speaker before starting his speech just say, dun say lv is only for girls, and he than pointed at his belt with his ever so bling lv logo belt... rm 1450..the way he pointed is so dam yeng!!! who wouldnt want something higher end if he can afford..right?? me too would dream of owning it.. but i am just not earning that much money to afford it.. even now, with my current sales results, i shouldnt be buying the ax belt too.. but like i say, i rather buy such things than to go for a higher end place just for dinner..paying 9 bucks for a can of coke ? worth it?


humans have endless wants.. my current shortest term is a CSL phone.. saw it at Summit the other day.. look like Iphone haha.. 599.. made in malaysia..

and of course longer term would be my haiz... hard to achieve second hand accord :P

oh ok, dont wanna be out of topic.. so is it worth investing so much for a gf? much or much is up to ones financial capability.. if u have a 4 figure pocket money everymonth. than of course, what i have mentioned above is nothing ...

worth it or not? i tak tau how to answer , but the only thing i know that at this very moment, we should appreciate what we are having now, and never let other outside factor make us do something that we will regret... unless theres a really change in feelings.. so worth it or not, i dunno how to answer it..


JEalousy ? a girls thingy? i beg to differ, not in my case at least.. its both sexes.. cause i am one of them.. therefore, sigh, life isnt easy for a person who is with me... guess i just got to learn how to accept the reality that it is me who is being a little stubborn... sorry :(

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decided to continue this post again after abandoning it for so long.

where were we talking about... oh ya, jealousy. :)
so who says only girls get jealous easily?

is jealousy in ur point of view a good or bad thing?

when we often say to your other partner try not to go out with tat fella so often try not to do that so often and bla bla bla.....

do we do it because we are afraid that too much of that will affect the current relationship?

or are we just plain 'FISHMONGER' aka selfish.

its always a million dollar question isnt it?

most will answer ok to control, but not too much, a little of both will make both sides happy.

but again, a little. wat is the line when we used the word a little? a little for u might not be a little for me and vice versa.

guess i better stop crapping here :)

p/s since this post is written in two different time, here i am to update that i have already bought my new hp, an asus.. not csl like wat i written before..

p.ss appreciate who u have today :)

p.sss Nothings Gonna Change My Love For YOu~George Benson is a bloody nice song


IMPORTANT!! terdelete one short movie clip that i've done ages ago about me and 'hehe'.. wanted to edit and do other stuff so that i can post it together in this post, but after editing i found it not nice.. so will go take the photos asap and redo it again.. :)